GOOOOOODDDD MORNING 🙂 How’s it going? How was your weekend? If you’re in college, I know you are flipping out right now because finals are coming up fast, like hot lava. You got this.
Ok, not much of an intro today! Let’s just jump right into this, shall we?
I’ve shared a good bit about my struggles with food and exercise on the blog. If you scroll down far enough through past posts, you’ll see it. And as weird and sometimes difficult the last I dunno, 15 + years have been, the journey is part of me. And I’ve been able to grow through it.
I am a big advocate for embracing and loving our bodies, taking ownership for our health choices, and most importantly, BEING KIND TO OURSELVES when it comes to food and exercise.
But that doesn’t mean that I beat myself up sometimes because of choices I make, and how I view myself in the mirror. In the past, I would take destructive thoughts and feelings about myself – usually because of a decision I made with food – and I would make myself exercise (usually in the form of running). And what a terrible road that was! That road is lonely, not fun, and definitely not fulfilling.
If you are shaking your head in confusion right now, then I’m happy for you. Maybe you’ve never dealt with those feelings, and praise God from who all blessings flow for that.
But for many women (and men too) these feelings have been a reality at one time or another. Or maybe you are currently experiencing these destructive thoughts. If I said I still daily give in to these feelings, I’d be exaggerating, maybe even lying to you. And that’s great! I’ve come a long way. But that doesn’t mean that I don’t struggle with them daily.
Saturday night I was with some friends. I ate and drank pretty crappy compared to how my habits have been. I woke up the next morning (yesterday) and felt pretty bad. BUT it was Sunday! – A day to rest and not even think about the gym. But what do you think one of my FIRST THOUGHTS was when I woke up??
You guessed it. What can I do to make myself feel better because of how bad I ate? I was immediately trying to figure out when I could get a run in, or a workout in, to make up for the bad decisions I made the night before (which looking back on a Monday, they weren’t even that bad). This just shows how warped my thinking can get if I allow it to.
And if I’ve learned anything about health and fitness and how to take care of my body and help others do the same, it’s that life doesn’t work that way 🙂 Food and exercise need each other. In the simplest terms, think of food as fuel. But food is also needed to survive. Therefore it’s a dangerous road to travel when we start thinking of food and exercise as a transactional relationship.
TBH I’ve come a long way. These destructive thoughts aren’t as loud, if you will. And they do go away! I have the power to recognize them for what they are and dismiss them. And then go do something better for that particular day.
Hear me out. I’m not saying that staying active every single day is wrong. Everybody is different. And honestly, I usually feel better on let’s say Monday if I did something to stay active the day before, as in go for a walk or maybe even a jog with some good music on a sunny day. But for me, I knew these current thoughts to go run, bike, lift (or whatever I was going to do) weren’t coming from a healthy place.
And I’m proud of myself for acknowledging the potential destruction, dismissing it, and moving on. And because I did that, I was able to wake up, EAT a healthy BREAKFAST with Daniel, go to church, take my 6 year old friend, Cat on a little date, and then go to hot yoga (which is always so much fun, but especially great yesterday because of all the fun people who were there). I ate normal, healthy food throughout the day, and I was good.
I was at peace…mostly because that is a pretty good, chill, worry free Sunday (especially for a dreary/cloudy day). But also because I didn’t walk down the same road I used to.
You could still be shaking your head all confusedlike, but I’m sure all of us can acknowledge at least one negative thought that comes up from time to time that we have to fight to bury back down in the ground. Maybe your’s is health related, or maybe it’s something way different.
ANYWHO, today is a *NEW DAY* If you fell off track over the weekend (whatever that looks like for you) today is the day to show yourself some love, forgive yourself, and make good choices (one at a time). The more you and I are able to acknowledge destructive thoughts for what they are, and actually do something to actively dismiss them, we are able to grow through the process.
I’d love to keep this conversation going. If you have questions, want to talk about this more, or you’re just confused, shoot me a message.
Sorry this one was such a downer today! Have a great week!!!!!!