Ok, it’s Tuesday (maybe even Wednesday by the time you read this) and there are way cooler things to talk about then an Open workout,. And I know 98% of the CrossFit world is ready to let 18.4 die- whether you thrived through this workout, or flopped a little (maybe even literally). Bare with me for like 3 minutes. I’ll keep it short.
It was a fun workout. And adding handstand walks into the Open was so cool – especially with the circumstance of having to “earn them” – as in get through the 21-15-9, AND an additional 21 deadlifts at a pretty challenging weight when your whole backside is toast.
I watched people get frustrated all day long Friday. I get it. I was frustrated too. I looked at my line from the year before and noticed my new line was at least 2 inches above the old one. I moved my hands in a little, did some reps when I was fresh, and everyone was like “ahhh you got it. Way over.” But then the workout comes, and with every rep, your hands get a little wider, your midline breaks a little, back hyper extends more, and suddenly, all the no reps come- even with your arms fully extended + heels up + a 3 second reach. How does that work?!?! I’m laughing, I promise.
So, I get the frustration. There are people at CFEC who have put in WORK to get better at handstand pushups (I’m sure you know people at your gym too). I know I have – especially when I couldn’t use my legs for a couple of months. But then we get to 18.4, all pumped to get to do handstand pushups because, like I said, we’ve worked SO HARD to get better at them, and it’s like, the handstand pushups we “mastered” – or at least got 10 x’s better at – aren’t “good enough.”
Daniel showed me this amazing article last night. Unfortunately, it got me reading people’s dumb comments at the bottom. SMH. But take it for what it’s worth 🙂
OKKKKK, let’s talk some perspective (sorry if you’ve heard this before, because it seems like everyone is voicing their opinion about the standard. I’m not like a pro athlete or anything, but I do like talking a little about perspective – because the way we look at things can be a game changer.
- Our worth or identity isn’t based on a workout. Or more specifically, handstand pushups and heavy deadlifts.
- The Open is meant to grow the CrossFit community together – not tear it apart. I’ve LOVED the Open this year at CFEC because of the cool people (of all ages) who have taken part in it, one way or another. I believe every single person has had some sort of personal breakthrough over the past 4 weeks, and we’ve been able to celebrate that as a gym. BUT at the end of the day, the Open is also put in place to separate that very very very small percentage of people who will make it to the next step (Regionals). And maybe we’re all just getting so fit overall that burpees, deadlifts, Ttb, rowing, and dumbbell snatches aren’t going to separate the fittest. Dave has to keep upping those standards to find the FITTEST because all of us are already pretty fit. The standards and movements and skills have to be upped to find the true fittest.
- Getting discouraged is ok! I was discouraged a lot over this past weekend, (and tried to hold most of it in). But it’s what you do with that discouragement that matters. Use it to fuel you to get better. And even more importantly, if you ended up embarrassing yourself by your reaction, make it right, and use it as a learning experience. The only reason I didn’t flip out this year (so far) is because I know where I’m currently at in my fitness, and I’m just not going to be in that top .7654% (or whatever it is). And also, I’ve already had my fair share of flipping out and embarrassing myself over workouts, so I try not to do that as much in front of a group of people.
- Use your perceived failure(s) in 18.4 for growth. I saw 3 of them for me (all 3 movements we did, I know I can improve in).
- I DON’T CARE IF YOU DID THE WORKOUT SCALED, RX, PUSHUPS, HANDSTAND PUSHUPS, HEAVY DEADLIFTS, HANDSTAND WALKING, BEAR CRAWLS, OR WHATEVER, STILL BE THANKFUL YOU CAN DO THE OPEN, OR SHOWCASE YOUR FITNESS, IN THE FIRST PLACE. MANY PEOPLE AREN’T ABLE TO DO THAT FOR ONE REASON OR ANOTHER 🙂
Everything I mentioned above is a constant gut check for me. I’m not perfect. I’ve had my fair share of melt downs in the gym – some were probably necessary at the time. Ya know, learning opportunities. But most of those meltdowns probably boiled down to some other deeper issue going on with me at the time.
I actually quit this workout the first time I did it (a little embarrassed, and in front of a lot of people at Friday Night Lights at CFEC) after only doing 21 deadlifts and 20 HSPU. I kept getting no repped on handstand pushups, and I had no idea WHYYYY. Ha. I didn’t want to go through all of those deadlifts when I didn’t know what I was doing wrong on handstand pushups.
So, I jumped in the last heat of the night when there was a free space, and did it again. This time not getting any no reps on the handstand pushups, but going SO SLOW and messing up on handstand walks. It turns out my hand likes to start on the line. So, I wasn’t happy about it. I said this already in an instagram post on Saturday, so I won’t type it all out over again. But you can read it below.
Shoutout to these girls for being an example to me!
Let’s just say I put a lot of effort into this workout, and it’s probably embarrassing how many deadlifts I did between Friday night and Monday night. My score wasn’t amazing by any means. But I was able to walk away from it feeling like I did my best in the end – not comparing myself to anyone else, but able to somewhat adapt and make the most of where I’m at now.
So I’m good with that! Shoutout to everyone who finished – looking at you Jackie. And shoutout to everyone who got their first handstand pushup (or at least first handstand pushup in awhile) – looking at you Lindsey, Mike Garren, and Kate! (and anyone else I’m forgetting right now).
We’ve got one more week, so let’s get hype, finish strong, and be nice to ourselves, our judges (ha), and others in the process.