WUT UP? How’s your week going? I don’t have a whole lot to tell you about today…except I’ve been putting this post off, and I’m supposed to be at the gym to coach in like 45 minutes…soooo GOTTA GO!

BUTTTTTT before we get started, if anyone knows an easier way to upload/transfer large videos from your phone to youtube/google drive/dropbox, hit me up! Haha, now you’re probably wondering what large videos I’m talking about. Nothing crazy…just the Open. YouTube wanted nothing to do with my video last week – or basically it said that it was going to take 3 days to upload. But Google Drive came through. This week though…. YouTube and Drive are both saying, “nah.. too big.” Anyway, if you’re reading this, and you know a lot about files and uploading videos, and all that jazz….(obviously I don’t)… help would be appreciated.

Speaking of the OPEN…19.3 wasssss 16.3.

Who remembers doing this back in 2016??

I think I posted this on Instagram Friday morning, but I LOVED this workout three years ago. Not because I was good at it. Haha. My goal that year was to just get as far as I could without letting the barbell crush me. I think it was my worst workout in the Open that year as far as placing goes…(and thankfully it was the only heavyish workout that year) BUT, it was my FAVORITE because it showed me what I was capable of. And it showed me just how special and great my CrossFit friends at CFEC really are. When this workout was announced in 2016, I had never cleaned more than 170 lb. I was able to get to the 4th round of cleans with a little over 3 minutes left. I missed a few, and then all of a sudden was able to clean one at 175 lb. IT WAS SO AWESOME. IT WAS UGLY and I CRINGE when I watch it now, but I think that makes it even more awesome now. I was able to clean it 5 times. I was taped out at the 16 min mark, but I didn’t even care.. I was so happy be able to lift that weight. To this day, I’ve never been able to forget the support my friends showed me that night at CFEC.

So, with that, I was stoked when I found out that I’d have the opportunity to repeat this one. I wanted redemption. And I was dreaming of how cool it would be to be able to get to that last bar and have a similar experience happen from 3 years ago. I knew 100% that this time I would be able to make it through all of those cleans in the 4th round – thus proving that I am in fact fitter than I was in 2016. I wanted that 205 lb bar. And I wasn’t afraid to say that I wanted at least 1 REP. I knew I could do that. I also made myself say out loud to someone that day that if I pushed hard and bought myself some time in the earlier rounds, I could finish this workout. But, TBH I knew that would be HUGE for me, and part of me didn’t really think I could do it.

By the time I finished my last set of double unders and put my brand new Blitz Belts Soggy Siren **MERMAID** belt on, I had just under 4 minutes left to that 20 minute time. Something snapped, and I missed the first rep.

BUT here’s where I am so proud of myself…

…I was able to shake it off and take a step back (unfortunately, that was a big step – haha — a step that took about 30 seconds to collect myself). I walked up to the bar KNOWING that if I could clean this weight one time, I could clean it 6 more consecutive times. Not to mention, we had a big crowd at the gym that night, and everyone was cheering so loud. I didn’t want to let anyone down.

I cleaned it, and honestly, it felt easy. And that doesn’t happen much to me. Anddddd…I cleaned it 6 more times after that. I was able to finish!

I know all 7 of those reps didn’t look easy, and it took about 3 minutes to get all 7 once I missed that first rep..but there was something about all those people – most of them being my friends and people I get to coach – but even a good bit of people I didn’t know. Their support and HYPE made me feel like I could do anything that night.

It was an experience I’ll never forget, and even have a hard time explaining. I’m a Christian, and I don’t feel like I talk about my faith on here a whole lot, but it’s worth throwing out there that I really felt like God was like, “Hey girl. I love you. And I’m going to show you that through this strength I’ve given you in this moment…and through all of these people right now… these people who believe in you when you don’t even fully believe in yourself all of the time. You’ve been really patient. And not every workout will continue to be a success in your eyes in the moment, but it’s all part of a plan I am working out in your life.”

…Anyway, take it or leave it, but that is what I felt like my creator said to me in that moment…Not word for word…but you hopefully get the idea.

Shoutout to everyone who surprised themselves in this workout this past weekend. I’m proud of my friends. We saw a good bit of PR’s at CFEC. I’d love to tell you more stories… but I gottaaaa gooooo!

19.3 was one of my favorite CrossFit moments I’ve ever had or been a part of. I’ll never forget it. Sure it wasn’t like a top score in the world or anything, but it was GREAT for me. And if I’ve learned anything through CrossFit, and competing, and coaching, it’s that if it is great for me, personally, that should be enough. I don’t need to compare myself to the almost 100 (FREAKING STRONG AND FIT) women/girls who finished before me. That’s why I love these repeat workouts we get every now and then. What a cool opportunity to test and see progress within ourselves – instead of always comparing ourselves to others.

Have a great weekend! And I HOPE YOU ABSOLUTELY CRUSH THIS NEXT WORKOUT!

all photos – Will Poteat Photography
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